First off, just booked some tickets for Spring Break. Sac-Town here I come! Secondly, just found out my internship ends at the beginning of May. With the option to go back in August to resume the internship if I choose too.
So fun, fun. I'm thinking of looking for summer job in either Sac or San Diego, but I got a couple months to figure that out. But that's about it.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Arrgghh!!!
Pirates vs. Ninja..... Ninja loses. Pirate wins.
Pirate Kyle that is... Yes Mikey, you made me into one scruffy muthah. You turned your fellow game tester into this monstrosity of a red-beard. Yeah. I likes it.
Monday, February 4, 2008
Realizations
So for better or worse, the choices I've made have lead me to where I'm at in life right now. And I hear lots of people say,"I wouldn't do anything different if I could" What a bunch bullshit that is. I sure as hell would change how I did things. Right or wrong my choices have made me who I am, and I'm just now beginning to see the shit I've done and become.
Now for all you people who are going to say that we are defined by our choices, and by changing them, you change who you are; I totally agree. But if I had done something differently, someone would be alive. Do you possibly know how heavy someones life can be, when you bare the guilt? What if by being 5 seconds faster, someone wouldn't have drowned? If I had trained harder, instead of goofing off?
But I also realized that I am my own opposition, and as weird as it is... I like it. Things have been weighing on my mind and I just don't know anymore. Right now I have all these feelings building inside of me and I just can't help but associate them all with Missouri.
Mostly I'm tired of being alone. Go sporadic thinking.
Now for all you people who are going to say that we are defined by our choices, and by changing them, you change who you are; I totally agree. But if I had done something differently, someone would be alive. Do you possibly know how heavy someones life can be, when you bare the guilt? What if by being 5 seconds faster, someone wouldn't have drowned? If I had trained harder, instead of goofing off?
But I also realized that I am my own opposition, and as weird as it is... I like it. Things have been weighing on my mind and I just don't know anymore. Right now I have all these feelings building inside of me and I just can't help but associate them all with Missouri.
Mostly I'm tired of being alone. Go sporadic thinking.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Fighting Against Terrorism
I've had a lot of free time recently (even with school starting back up) and have found myself reading a couple different books about the Special Forces of America and about how and why they were created. I'll be honest, I originally picked up the books to read the stories from the actual teams and one book, 'Inside Delta Force' is exactly that. Written by Eric Haney, he was one of the original operatives in Delta Force and the training they received is astounding. And I'll have to admit I had my little boy moment saying, 'That's sooo cool'.
The next book I started to read was written by Tom Clancy and a retired Brigadier General Carl Stiner. I know what some of you may think, oh it's a Clancy book, that's what I thought as well, I was expecting stories from the actual operatives, but what I didn't know was that Clancy also writes non-fiction about the military. And that's where Stiner comes. Stiner and Clancy lay down an outline and history of Special Forces and unconventional warfare. Clancy then go on to explain just how difficult it is to combat terrorism.
One thing I found interesting in both books was that to fight terrorism requires a degree of cut-throatedness(not a word I know, so sue me). What I found interesting was you have these scumbagish, unscrupulous men as terrorists willing to do whatever necessary to accomplish there goals. And oppositely, the men we have combating that, are the most honorable men, that sometimes have to do worse than their counter-parts to effectively combat them.
Now with all this talk and divide going on with Iraq and whatever our reasons for being there are, we cannot forget that it was terrorist actions that spurred us to actions. How do we effectively combat someone who is willing more willing to die than work out a compromise or a dialogue for peace.
This isn't the first time that terrorism has been encountered, it happened during Roman times as well. The Romans had a strong(too strong) response to any terrorist act against a Roman citizen. For instance if a Roman Citizen was killed, Roman soldiers would grab 10 foreigners at random and kill them. The life of a Roman was worth 10 non-Romans. This worked as a strong deterrent, because the ruled populous understood that the Romans would follow through on this policy with no remorse. And it's one thing to lay down your life for a cause, but that of your wife, husband, mother, daughter, father, and son? Like I stated, this was brutal, but it worked.
So what am I saying? I have no clue, just some thoughts I put together on my drive home from work.
The next book I started to read was written by Tom Clancy and a retired Brigadier General Carl Stiner. I know what some of you may think, oh it's a Clancy book, that's what I thought as well, I was expecting stories from the actual operatives, but what I didn't know was that Clancy also writes non-fiction about the military. And that's where Stiner comes. Stiner and Clancy lay down an outline and history of Special Forces and unconventional warfare. Clancy then go on to explain just how difficult it is to combat terrorism.
One thing I found interesting in both books was that to fight terrorism requires a degree of cut-throatedness(not a word I know, so sue me). What I found interesting was you have these scumbagish, unscrupulous men as terrorists willing to do whatever necessary to accomplish there goals. And oppositely, the men we have combating that, are the most honorable men, that sometimes have to do worse than their counter-parts to effectively combat them.
Now with all this talk and divide going on with Iraq and whatever our reasons for being there are, we cannot forget that it was terrorist actions that spurred us to actions. How do we effectively combat someone who is willing more willing to die than work out a compromise or a dialogue for peace.
This isn't the first time that terrorism has been encountered, it happened during Roman times as well. The Romans had a strong(too strong) response to any terrorist act against a Roman citizen. For instance if a Roman Citizen was killed, Roman soldiers would grab 10 foreigners at random and kill them. The life of a Roman was worth 10 non-Romans. This worked as a strong deterrent, because the ruled populous understood that the Romans would follow through on this policy with no remorse. And it's one thing to lay down your life for a cause, but that of your wife, husband, mother, daughter, father, and son? Like I stated, this was brutal, but it worked.
So what am I saying? I have no clue, just some thoughts I put together on my drive home from work.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Introspection
It's been a week since my last post (not really much of a post, but it was something) and I figured I should give my viewing populace an update on things. I'll be honest, this week has been anything but good, but I'm blessed with awesome friends, and even though they're two thousand miles away, they can still lift up my spirits.
Right now I've just finished my 2nd week of school and so far so good. (Still need to get a jump start on my history class) I'm rocking it in algebra and I'm liking the whole online homework and testing aspect of it. The program, while super picky about the answers it will accept as correct, is also good at helping you solve the problems as well. It's pretty well thought out. I'm hoping to walk out with an A. My business comp sci class has me bored to tears already. I was praying we would work with Java Script, but no, HTML coding is what we will be spending the majority of our time on. HTML is a static, non-dynamic programming language that is almost dead. Oh well, I'll just razzle and dazzle with my 1EE7 h4xxorz skillzorz. Other classes are meh, but good.
Work was interesting this week, started some laptop training on Friday and that was pretty entertaining. My trainer and co-trainees are a fun bunch and we bs'd for most of it. I really like Edward Jones as a company. They know how to instill loyalty into their employees and not by buying them off with pay. They treat their employees with respect, its a novel approach. Next week is more training.
I think one thing that's really got me down this week is just the realization that I really don't have much going on in the way of a social life. I go to work, school, swim, and kick it at home. And I'm really fine with that, but sometimes I just wish for more, but I'm not someone who makes friends just to have them. I dunno, I think just being this far away from my comfort zone gets to me everyonce in awhile. I'll just bury my head into the grindstone.
Yeah, it's an alright post. Debating whether this one will get posted or saved.
Right now I've just finished my 2nd week of school and so far so good. (Still need to get a jump start on my history class) I'm rocking it in algebra and I'm liking the whole online homework and testing aspect of it. The program, while super picky about the answers it will accept as correct, is also good at helping you solve the problems as well. It's pretty well thought out. I'm hoping to walk out with an A. My business comp sci class has me bored to tears already. I was praying we would work with Java Script, but no, HTML coding is what we will be spending the majority of our time on. HTML is a static, non-dynamic programming language that is almost dead. Oh well, I'll just razzle and dazzle with my 1EE7 h4xxorz skillzorz. Other classes are meh, but good.
Work was interesting this week, started some laptop training on Friday and that was pretty entertaining. My trainer and co-trainees are a fun bunch and we bs'd for most of it. I really like Edward Jones as a company. They know how to instill loyalty into their employees and not by buying them off with pay. They treat their employees with respect, its a novel approach. Next week is more training.
I think one thing that's really got me down this week is just the realization that I really don't have much going on in the way of a social life. I go to work, school, swim, and kick it at home. And I'm really fine with that, but sometimes I just wish for more, but I'm not someone who makes friends just to have them. I dunno, I think just being this far away from my comfort zone gets to me everyonce in awhile. I'll just bury my head into the grindstone.
Yeah, it's an alright post. Debating whether this one will get posted or saved.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Bad Day
Not really trying to get all depressing and melodramatic, its just been a long, bad day. Figured I'd let my man Johnny say it for me.
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