Quick Run Down

First off, just booked some tickets for Spring Break. Sac-Town here I come! Secondly, just found out my internship ends at the beginning of May. With the option to go back in August to resume the internship if I choose too.

So fun, fun. I'm thinking of looking for summer job in either Sac or San Diego, but I got a couple months to figure that out. But that's about it.

Arrgghh!!!

Pirates vs. Ninja..... Ninja loses. Pirate wins.

Pirate Kyle that is... Yes Mikey, you made me into one scruffy muthah. You turned your fellow game tester into this monstrosity of a red-beard. Yeah. I likes it.

Realizations

So for better or worse, the choices I've made have lead me to where I'm at in life right now. And I hear lots of people say,"I wouldn't do anything different if I could" What a bunch bullshit that is. I sure as hell would change how I did things. Right or wrong my choices have made me who I am, and I'm just now beginning to see the shit I've done and become.

Now for all you people who are going to say that we are defined by our choices, and by changing them, you change who you are; I totally agree. But if I had done something differently, someone would be alive. Do you possibly know how heavy someones life can be, when you bare the guilt? What if by being 5 seconds faster, someone wouldn't have drowned? If I had trained harder, instead of goofing off?

But I also realized that I am my own opposition, and as weird as it is... I like it. Things have been weighing on my mind and I just don't know anymore. Right now I have all these feelings building inside of me and I just can't help but associate them all with Missouri.

Mostly I'm tired of being alone. Go sporadic thinking.